The Child I Won’t Have

Some grief arrives quietly.
Not with chaos, but with silence.

The silence of the child you will never hold.
The future you only realised you wanted when it was already slipping through your fingers.

This piece is one of the hardest things I’ve ever written.
About IVF. About loss. About letting go of the life I thought I still had time for.

And about learning how to survive the ache of becoming someone different than you imagined.