Life at its core
“The scariest moment is always just before you start. After that, things can only get better.” ~ Stephen King
This is the place where I am me. Where I can show the world who I am. Express myself and maybe inspire a few people along the way.
Who am I?
I am Bron, I am in my forties and I have PTSD. I am on a healing journey of which I will share here and on my instagram, @mylifemyway222. Feel free to follow along.
I am a Scorpio sun, Sagittarius moon and a Scorpio rising. My core identity is deep, intense and emotionally driven. I have a strong will, I am resilient and drawn to the need to transform and grow in all aspects of my life. I am loyal and passionate and require emotional authenticity in my relationships. Though I do still need my own space. I also feeling everything and feel it deeply. I seek freedom, truth and meaning in life. I am an optimistic person. I enjoy adventure in ways that bring meaning and challenge to my life. I can seem very distant and cold when people first meet me, but once you get past that I am incredibly open. I love to go deeper, I want to understand the world we live in and my purpose here. I am fascinated by psychology, the occult, transformation, spirituality and human behaviour. My favourite things are coffee and deep and meaningful conversations. I love a good ‘a ha’ moment.
In terms of Human Design I am a Generator. This means I thrive in work that excites me. I follow my intuition and my joy. If it isn’t a hell yes, then it is a no. For a very long time in my life I have not been living this way. Instead living according to societal expectations and the examples I have been shown throughout my life as the way I should be living and working. It took a breakdown to realise what I was doing wasn’t working and I needed to find a better way.
In the Enneagram, I am a four. I am creative, sensitive and introspective. I compare myself to others and often feel like I am not good enough. I want to be an individual and be unique. I seek meaning and beauty in things. I am very self aware but not good with taking care of myself often showing more compassion for others. I can be withdrawn and moody.
So that is how I can to be where I am now. Being a writer, putting myself out there and showing the world what I am made of and who I really am. I have loved every step of my journey and I look forward to sharing it with everyone. The ups and the downs.
To embrace all these aspects of me I meditate and listen to the universe’s guidance for me. I study To Be Magnetic to further enhance my life and manifest my dream life. I also study the Enneagram, Human Design among other processes to enhance my authenticity in this life.
From all of this I have developed the mantra, how good can it get. It was something I thought about almost twenty years ago in a lesson from Robert Holden at one of his events. Thinking about the dream for my life and what I truly want. It is something I keep striving for and I am so grateful for the introduction all those years ago. Even if it took me this long to finally grasp its meaning and life that way.
I am constantly writing new short stories along with all the other things I am writing. These stories I will be adding to my blog. Also checking in with myself regularly and sharing the things that come to mind. I am enjoying my journey and sharing with the world and hopefully inspire, or encourage others along the way. So check out my blog, comment and share.
I have also created a shop with merchandise to help remind you of your journey and you can download and edit some of the poems that I have created to hang in your house or share with others. I hope you find these things inspiring.
I hope the things I share here will help you find your own version of How Good It Can Get. If it does, please drop me a line and let me know. I love to hear peoples success stories. Its how we grow and expand.
How Good Can It Get?
How good can it get? I ask the sky, as morning spills in gold on high. The breeze responds with scented grace, a kiss of sun across my face.
How good can it get? I ask the day, as laughter lifts the dust away. Each moment glows, a beating drum, a whispered thrill of what’s to come.
A hand in mine, a look, a smile, a quiet walk, a stretched out mile. The world is stitched in hidden threads of dreams once lost, now bloomed instead.
It’s not in riches, grand or loud, but coffee steam, a softened cloud. The way a song can make me cry, the way your eyes say ‘so do I.’
How good can it get? I see it clear: It’s this, this breath, this love, right here. And just when I think I’ve touched the height, life gifts me more, more warmth, more light.